THE socks drawer

What is LOVE?..

How can I know he is still in love with me?..

How long would love last? .....

As much as relationships are amazing to be in, they can also be catastrophic.  There are multiple signs that gives you signals your relationship is collapsing or is in best shape. (NO! Changing your status 'I LOVE YOU!" is not of them!) 

If  signs are really bad!!! 

Can we avoid tragic end? ... Can we put aside our insecurities and jealousies? Or just let it go till our loves deteriorate and die..

I don't know!!! I'm not an expert on this "LOVE' subject. I learned as I went along. I will tell what I know. It doesn't mean it works for every couple.

Yes I'm in love! Brian is my first boy friend. Now! He is my husband actually.

It has been over nine years we have been together. We had good days and bad days.

Have I ever been worried if our relationship could end?...

Or Have I ever tested his feelings and royalties?.... 

Or Have I ever been scared there would be a possibility he would leave me?....

YES! YES! & YES! Many many times! How couldn't I?

I guess all come with territory. I learned to find answers to my concerns in our relationship. I followed the signs. Before I met him I felt empty even if I slept with who ever I wanted to. There are so many signs I could see if our relationship is on the right path or going down to drain. I'm sure every couple have these signs to keep the relationship on the right track.

Keep this between us! :)  My biggest sign is THE socks drawer. No kidding! This is not a funny, silly Z joke! The socks drawer always reminds me how deep our love is. 

Let me explain! ---

When we moved in together like 8 years ago. We merged our socks and put in one drawer before we had joint accounts and even before we put ring on our fingers.

 Not that we wear the same size socks. On the contrary our sizes are totally different. I wear size 8 he wears size 10 (Yeah! He is big! Tee hee hee!) 

Something about using the same socks even if they don't fit properly make me think that we can sacrifice and meet at the middle way.  Some day he wears smaller socks. His feet barely fit in them. Other day I wear bigger socks. My feet swim in them The worst While I walk they get loose in my shoes. But we both make it work and smile.

I love our socks drawer. Every morning I open the socks drawer, I can literally hear Brian telling me 'I LOVE YOU". Every time I reach that drawer I remember how I'm proud to love him. I know as long as we keep the socks drawer, we will be together.  Our socks drawer is our love drawer where we put our love in. It is pure, real and vulnerable. Nobody can touch our love but us...

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THE Nipples Project

Nipples are the most sensitive part of the body. These images could generate many naughty emotions in your naughty head .--WELL! Enjoy!!  & Feel free to follow your emotions!_:)

If you have time to kill, read this--"A letter to my dead father"

While you are having sex, would you check your facebook and post a snap shot of your penetration?....

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Almost a month ago six of us made a plan to have Sunday brunch. As usual we picked a place serving unlimited bloody marry. 

Well! Six gay guys and unlimited alcohol! It sounds a lot of FUN! Right?

NOOOO! NOOOO! It was f-ing boring like HELL! Here I said! 

Listen my story...

Going back to past...

One month ago on a cold Sunday

Six sharply dressed gay guys met at the corner of 14th street and 8th avenue. Their smiley faces and extra white teeth were giving away happiness. Z (THE blogger) was one of them. Shortly they got to the most popular brunch place. Place was popular not because food was so delicious. In fact food tasted like gross microwaved meal. It was popular because bloody marry(s) and mimosa (s) were unlimited for brunch. (Just FYI! It's very important detail for gay boys to choice the place)

As soon as they sat down, smoking hot Latino waiter came to the table. They all screamed with drooling mouths simultaneously  "HEEYYYY!!! We need DRINKSSS!"

Once they heard Brazilian accent of handsome waiter, they melted like cheese balls on a grill. Till drinks arrived to the table (approximately six minutes) they chatted each other. Subjects were not serious like fashion, Fire Island and latest tricks from grindr....

Hot waiter rushed to the table carrying a tray in his pumped arms. Gay boys screamed again simultaneously "DRINNKSS! Fieeercee!"...It sounded like gay men chorus singing..

They took big sips as if they had been dehydrated for 48 hours. As soon as alcohol reached their stomach, they pulled out their iphones (including Z) from their pockets and.... Let the scrolling, texting and emailing begin!!!!

There were no listening no looking at each other and even no talking. One of them checked his grindr for his post- brunch quickie. The other one texted to his sister. And the other changed his status on facebook to "Having fun brunch with my boys". 

Of course Z checked his blogs to see how many hits he got in 45 minutes.

Gulping down bloody marry(s) continued but they were no connection at all through out the brunch...

 At the middle of brunch Z had to send message to guys on the table via facebook "Put  your phones off! It is boring here" They all read the message immediately and laughed simultaneously, but it did not work, They were so connected to their iphones so they could not let go. At the end of brunch they were drunk and digitally intoxicated...

While they were leaving, they kissed each other said "It was FUN. Lets do it again!"..... What-A-FUN BRUNCH!???

Seriously!! When did we all become so obsessed with our cell phones? Isn't constant checking facebook, tweeter, emails EXHAUSTING!!!??

I mean!!! Despite all of unlimited alcohol we could not help ourselves being online. First of all was rude to other people. Second! It was so disrespectful to valuable unlimited brunch hour!!!! There is no alcohol should be wasted this way!!

Where is this going to stop? Where is the limit???
While you are having sex, would you check your facebook and post a snap shot of your penetration?? ... And go further!! Tag him "9 inch"!!--Would you?

 

I have to admit I'm the same way. I have needs to be online every ten minutes. 

We live in the era everyone's smart phones are their beloved. They are our digital lovers. Seriously! Who needs a boyfriend if there is an application for everything even for sex!!!

I'm constantly in touch with my iphone. Like a crazy person I scroll, feel and finger my iphone. Even I named it. His name is Henry.

 I see my Henry more than my husband. That's not even a joke. Do you think it is cheating???? I'm concerned...

I charge and clean my Henry religiously. Yeah! When did I clean my husband's ass or give him a shower??--- NEVER!

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Let's admit!! We all are our smart phones' bitches!! We are hooked and grabbed by our balls by either Apple or Blackberry!!! 
When did this happen to us and more importantly to me!!!!???

SO!! I decided to go on a cell-phone diet! 
I will dramatically decrease my romantic hours with my Henry.  I will never post a picture of my new shoes or freshly waxed my chest on facebook. I will try to update my status once a day or two days not every hour. When there is a beautiful sun set I will put my Henry away and enjoy the moment.

Most importantly I will choose a good cocktail over my Henry. I enjoy my cosmopolitan without disruption of my digital lover while holding my real human husband's hand...

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Someone who has never loved has never lived............

Love is a fan club with only two fans.

Love is the irresistible de to be desired irresistibly...

Boys meet boys, so what?....

Love finds you when the time is right...

Have a romantic Valentines Day!

Vacation

Seriously I need a long vacation. I saw myself on an empty beach last nite (in my dream). Being in the middle of winter doesn't help my anxiety. I'm very warm places-person. My husband arranged little vacation for us. Hopefully I will going to San Diego next month. I have never been there and I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!

Search for solitary men continues.....

My search for solitary men on Manhattan street relentlessly continued for months and still

is on. This solitary man was enjoying the sun on a summer Friday afternoon.

This adorable man was looking out from a restaurant's window. He looked in deep thoughts and solitary.

This solitary man was out of touch with reality. He was so happy to listen his music in middle of big city's chaos. I had no choice to capture his picture.

At Bryant Park I was taking the late afternoon break. I saw him. He lonely and exhausted.....

He was surrounded by red flowers and was very pensive. It was a very hot August afternoon.

This handsome man was enjoying being solitary and hot Fall afternoon in Williamsburg where all hypsters hung out.

And here comes sailor!!  It was the way before "Don't tell! Don't ask!" was repelled. He was stunningly handsome and heartbreakingly solitary.

The way he stood by red-licious tomatoes and his hand were in his pockets made me think he was solitary. He was so cute....

And the last one was passing by while inhaling his cigarette. He was on the bridge very high up. I couldn't help notice and feel his loneliness...

To be continued.....

Previously on Solitary Men 

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Missing Fire Island very much....

I have no idea why I started missing Fire Island so much recently. Maybe never ending storms would be the reason. OR!! I have been working on filling out empty spots at our Fire Island share. Happily I can say we filled the house so quickly. New housemates seem so nice and are genuine guys. Yeah! You all will meet them through my photographs. BUT! You gotta wait till May. I mostly missed the beach and low tea. I can't wait piut in my blue flower again... Meantime! Have fun these beach scene photographs. I put them together for you. ENJOY BOYS!

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