Z reveals-:):): January 2011

Jingle BILLS! Jingle BILLS!

Unfortunately the most magical time of the year ended. I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!! I want Christmas ALL year around. I wish...

I listened all those lovely Christmas carols through out holidays.

I giggled with singing "Rudolf the red nosed reindeer". While jogging I sang my lungs out "The most wonderful day of the year".

But in my dear heart "Jingle Bells! Jingle Bells" had a special place. No!!!! Not just because that song reminded me "Jingle balls! Jingle balls"

I can't explain! Everything about that carol makes me happy!! How about you? Don't you love "Jingle bells! Jingle bells"?

Lets remember lyrics...

Bells on bob tails ring
Making spirits bright
What fun it is to laugh and sing
A sleighing song tonight

Oh, jingle bells, jingle bells
Jingle all the way

YES!!! JINGLE ALL THE WAY!!!! I did! I did!
Seriously I jingled, mingled and giggled ALL THE WAY Christmas time!!!! It was just like a dream.

Now! I woke up. It HURTS!!!! -- Ask me WHY?--

I received my credit my bill!

OMG! OMG! OH MY BUTT!!

NOW! I sing "JINGLE BILLS! JINGLE BILLS!!!!"

I bought so many gifts and gave away bottles of liquor annndd threw away ludicrous amount of tips.

WHAT have I done?

What have all of us done?

I have friends they can't even afford simple water this month.
My credit card bills is pages and pages. It is nauseating.

With inexplicable craziness! I bought everything on sale, discount and clearance.

Honestly some Xmas gifts are just junks!!! I mean seriously!! How many salt & pepper do I need?

How about those jars of jams our lesbian friends gave us. They said they were home made. I don't know about that but top of jam was crusted. Should I be concerned???

I got total twelve candles from my friends as Xmas gifts. I don't know you but I'm ready to open my own church with those. Although I re-gifted eight of candles.

You can't imagine how many odd gifts I received. One of my co-worker gave me ugliest crystal-like ashtray. I don't even smoke. How about those green knee-legnth socks I received from my straight friend. Elf has the same ones. --- OH MY FASHION GOD!!!!!

Do we have to give each other all these junks??!!

What happened gift cards!! Cash is always good!!

Speaking of cash!! I'm burned down giving away Christmas tips. I mean every one wants it!! Our mail man, our newspaper woman and our lazy superintendent!!!!

All these people are not enough!!!! My husband's 19 years nephew got knocked up last year and had to get married. It sounds like Bristol Palin... (with no dancing with stars gig)

Newly and forced to be couple constantly sent their baby's xrays, pictures... All those reminders that made us feel guilty. We had no choice but to sent a generous pile of money. Brian said it was a traditional. --GEE!

Well! I used my little, smart head. Before I mailed the envelop I put two condoms in it. I wrote a little on the card "Use these wisely".
COME ON!!!! If she gets pregnant every year we would bankrupt..

Yes! Magical Christmas times ended! Ornaments are in bottom of closet getting dusty!!!

ME!!! Looking at absurd credit card bill and singing "JINGLE BILLS! JINGLE BILLS!"

Dashing through bills!

Crying all the way!

Making my sprit dark

Uuggh jingle bills, jingle bills

Jingle all the way...

Yucks! What a misery it is to pay

Jingle BILLS, jingle BILLS

In my butt all the way

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YEAAHHH!! FRIDAY!!!!

Seriously! Did you feel like this week was the longest week ever?? I mean! Damn week didn't end!!

I'm so glad!! Tomorrow is Friday. Honestly today felt like Friday already for me. I don't know why.

I felt exhausted all day. I was at Share-a-thon last night. I had to talk a lot. We have couple of shares open at Fire Island summer house, I needed to go there and present the house.

Ooopps! Let me explain who doesn't know what share-a-thon is. It is very NY thing.

Since Fire Island houses extremely expensive, gay guys share houses over the summer. So gay center organizes an event every year. Who ever looking for house go there to talk to house offerers.

Anyway! It was very crowded. So many interesting guys! Shall we say crowd was eclectic! I met so many nice people. I felt very tired at the end of the night. I guess I did a lot of talking! :):) Hopefully we will find nice housemates. Will see...

I'm excited for this weekend. I have a lot of plans. I have been on some kind of diet. Because that I haven't had cocktail for two weeks. I mean I'm not sure I lost a lot of weight. Lets put this way! At least my skin looks better. --WELL! I would like to gulp down couple of cosmopolitans over the weekend

I really would love to see couple of exhibitions in Chelsea. Of course I need to spare time for my photography. I love street photography and candid shots.

Hope you all have an AMAZING weekend

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Men' hands here .. groping, grabbing, reaching...

Sometimes I think about what if I lost my hands! What would I do? -- What would you do?
Most of the time we don't realize how we use our hands. We use them reflexively --Without thinking! Without paying attention.
Beside being one of the sexiest parts of man, our hands help us at every stage of our lives.

Hands hold the ones we LOVE

Hands cover our emotions

Hands help us to relax

Hands keep our balance

Hands tell "I love you" without using words

Hands open the door for us so we can enjoy.... -:):)

Most importantly...

Hands gives us hopes and help to reach our dreams.

Think again! What would you do without your hands?...

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Thank you!!!

I FIRED my New Year's resolutions!!!-- No kidding!!

I don’t know you but I’m a LOOSER when subject comes to New Year’s resolutions.

I CANNOT win!!!

I tired everything all those years. I made my list weeks before January 1^st. I created a calendar and posted on my refrigerator. I put reminders on my iphone. They beeped all day and weeks--. I didn’t even care!!!

Ones! I went further almost with sick obsession. I took a picture of the fattest girl at my work. The one all the time wore legging with her deep camel toe. I posted her picture with a side note “Don’t be like her” on my closet.

How mean of me???!!! (devilishly smiley face)

I had to do what ever it took to achieve my resolutions.

(It was years ago!! I was young! Stop judging me!!)

NOTHING worked!!! Yes!! I was a looser and always would be!!!

This year I decided to treat this issue with a different attitude!

PEOPLE!!!

I FIRED my new year’s resolutions!!! THAT’S IT!!!

I proudly announce I didn’t have those lists with 33 items to achieve through out six months or shall we say till summer.

Nothing happened!! Earth didn’t collapse! I mean we got a snow storm and couple of car accidents in NYC but those always happen. That’s not my fault.

YES! YES! and YES! I’m organically new year’s resolution-free!!

Come on! Every year my number one resolution was “Stop drinking for one month”

You see how absurd that resolution was.

Get real! It is not me to make me drink. It is peer pressure or work pressure.

YEAH!

Last weekend we met our friends Murdach & Patrick for brunch, I proudly announced I wasn’t drinking alcohol.

OMG!! I thought earth collapsed on their heads (including my husband)

First question was “Why?”

It felt like why someone who was supposed to be mentally balanced could do such a horrible decision.

“Because I’m going to go on a cleansing diet on Monday”

“WHY? You look great! Your skin shines! Why? Why? Why?” Those why-s made echoes in my little head. –AAAYYY!!

Despite of not drinking I had great time with those guys! (Boys! Let’s do it AGAIN!)

I mean total peer pressure. Can’t you see? If it’s up to me, I would never drink (devilishly smiley face one more time!)

People are judgmental towards to someone doesn’t drink. Do I have another choice but drinking. NO!--Honestly!!!

How about tense days at work which is usually every single day. It is a pleasure to have one or two glasses or WHOLE bottle of red wine.

Anyway I was going to blow my first new year’s resolution ANYWAY, so I’d better not to commit it. WIN- WIN! I’m not a looser.

Shall we talk about that vicious resolution “Enjoy life more!” -- Excuse me!!!

Who ever created this resolution either he never lived in NYC or have been never an immigrant in a country. All I’m saying……

I love NYC but it comes with a toxic package. 2010 was all about bed bugs!!! Previous year was swine flue. Before that there was panic of staph infection!!--

Give me A break!! How could we enjoy the life while we ALL are scratching our crotches in the subway?

We live with these threats all the time here. Not to mention heaviest tax in USA or world.—How can’t I drink???

All those other resolutions like-- I’ll be more organized!! I'll go to gym more!! –

OMG! Screw ALL!

When I’m hangover or drunk, who has energy to do all those??

I’ve been so exhausted to be a looser every year. . No new year’s resolution!! No disappointment!!

I happily FIRED my new year's resolutions with no severance package due to economy!--GOOD RIDDANCE!

Hello!!!! I’m deliciously resolution-free! I’m indestructible! And I’m a WINNER!

I enjoy life more than ever. I’m smiling…(DEVILISHLY)

HARRRRTHH! BUMMPPPPED! #$@%!

—JESUS!! What was that noise?

OOOPPssiie!

I dropped the martini glass, while I’m writing—Hiicckk!!

It split all over!!—Hickkk

Let’s leave it there! --I’m organized now!! You know!

Who cares! Life is beautiful! I can do anything! Even I walk on broken glass with my bare feet..---AAAAWWW it hurt!!!!!

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Midnight sketching-- Whenever I get insomnia I like to sketch,,

I don't know you but I can't sleep some nights. I toss and turn in my bed. Even if I force myself, it seems impossible to go back to sleep to nights. Counting sheep or hot runway models doesn't help.
I get afraid to wake my husband. When I look at him, I see he sleeps like an angle. Seriously he looks so adorable in his sleep. I put a little kiss on his cheek-- Hsssh!

Gently I get up. I try to as quite as a little mouse. I don't want to distribute Brian. I go to my working room where I blog and do my photography. That late hour I sketch. That's only thing makes me calm.

I sketch in my computer. Sketches are for some reason always black & white. Maybe black represents my mood and white represents where my mood wants to be.

I start with a photograph and play with them in photoshop. Every each sketch has their own style but always black & white. I love colors but not when I'm restless, sleepless and alone.

I sketch aggressively like I'm very angry. I don't think anything. My mind get empty. I sketch till my right arms hurts and till I get exhausted. I get calm.

I sit back and look at artworks I did. I smile. I feel happy and sleepy. I walk back to my bed. And alarm goes off. It is time to get up!! --Uuuugghhh!

I wonder if I'm the only one gets insomnia. Do you get too once in a while?

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