Z reveals-:):): September 2009

My blue flower project FINALLY made it!! Thank you Kevin Casteel!!!

When I received an email from Kevin Casteel through facebook, I was VERY surprised. Message was saying Kevin wanted to do an article about my BLUE FLOWER project for examiner.com. He said he founded my project so cute & clever. ( Yeah! Join to club Kevin) First I was skeptical! After thinking over I emailed back "LET'S DO IT!"

Since we are in different cities, he sent his questions through email. Also he asked me to give 10 pictures to create slight show. I asked my friends if I could use their pictures. They jumped in! Except one person, everyone wanted to be in slide show. (Don't ask who didn't want to be in!)

In the same day he emailed me questions. I read all questions. Some of the questions were very interesting. They made me realize that I have never thought about those things. Like "What does the blue flower symbolize and what is the main purpose of this project?" , "What does the blue flower symbolize and what is the main purpose of this project? "

Since we were doing interview via emails, I had time to think. I sent my

responds to Kevin after 10 days ( almost) . " Why did it take so long?"Because I was in Fire Island for Labor Day weekend. I was working hard for more blue flower pictures.

Kevin worked on article couple of days, but something unexpected happened. His computer crashed. He had to get it fixed. It took one week. And sweet Kevin had to re- write the article, when he got his computer back.

Anyway article turned out fabulous (like me)

Slide show is fantastic!

I love he calls my blue flower project as facebook sensation!

My favorite quote of mine is "30 years from now I can look back

and say, “Wow! I was the original blue flower boy. I rocked!!”

So many of my friends love this part----"You don’t need to have expensive things to be happy. One little pretty flower can make you very happy and laugh. It can make your day.” Even with these tough economic times, Bdr still finds a way to make everyone around him happy--

YEAH BOYS! My Blue flower finally MADE it!!!

THANK YOU KEVIN CASTEEL!

Click here to read examiner.com article

Also click here to see Kevin Casteel profile

Annddd here is Kevin Castell's facebook

HIT HERE TO SEE ALL BLUE FLOWER ALBUM

LOVE MY BLUE FLOWER!!!!

A letter to the kid I will never adopt

Hey Kiddo!

First of all I apologize that I dumped this bad news on you suddenly. It is true I will never adopt you. Sorry!!!!

Let me explain! Since I'm a gay guy, having a kid through a conventional way doesn't work for me. I mean, I can't penetrate a woman in order to have a kid. Only option is adoption for me (Screw surrogate mother!!!) Honestly adoption involves so much paper work , money and the most importantly ANXIETY. I don't need that in MY life. I have my own daily anxiety already.

I would definitely adopt you if I was like those rich bitches Madonna & Angelina Jolie. I would hire multiple nannies. I could see you every Thursday for couple hours and give you pep talk and pet your neck. So it will be it!

I'm not sure what my boyfriend thinks about my decision but I don't care anyway.

Seriously why would you like to be my kid anyway. Do you really want to have a father who walks around with a blue flower on his head??? I might come to your school meeting with my blue flower in the future. Wouldn't it be embarrassing for you? Don't tell me to take my flower off!! This is me!! Your father is what you see what you get! I won't change my eccentric personality.

Kiddo!!! I love going out and having drinks with friends. Mostly I don't remember everything following day. How could I take care of you when I'm having a MAJOR hung over. COME ON! Be reasonable! I can't listen your crying while I have a nasty headache!!!! Stop being selfish!!!!

How about while I'm out who is going to take care of you! Sure I can hire a baby sitter! What if baby sitter turns out a disaster. Look at Michael Jackson's baby sitter. She visits every channel and talks badly about MJ. I CAN'T allow that!! OK ! I'm not as famous as MJ but I'm a Internet celebrity!!!! I have my own fan club even though I didn't still shave my nose!

How about SHIT??? Seriously! You will poop! You will pee! I have to clean your ass! COME ON! Get real!!!!!!

I'm sure you will be so cute when you are a little tiny baby!

A D O R A B L E!!! Certainly you will be a monster when you become a teenager. They all do!!! I can't handle that! Your every single problem will give a deep wrinkle on my face! NO! NO! I would rather DIE!

Sure!! You would like to go to college! That's all of money! I have to give up my face lift, botox and injection budget. That's out of question!!!!

OK!!! All above reasons might sound BULLSHIT to you ! Get this! My biggest concern is that what if you will be a fat kid??!!!

OH GOD! They would never tell me who is your mother & father! What if being chubby kid is in your genes???!!! I can't deal with that!!!! I have to put you on a liquid diet or raw vegetable diet or Atkins diet or I could make you just stop eating.

Do you really want to go through this?? REALLY?

Think again!!! Sorry kid!!! I can't do this!!!

Take a deep breath! Let it sink in!!!!

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